Saturday, January 22, 2011

Should I keep going...

Usually it is late at night that I feel like writing.  As I am tucked into my nightly hibernation, I let myself process all that is still rattling around in my head.  Most of the time, these ramblings turn into prayers, sometimes it is just working through things, conversations etc.  I do the same thing in the shower.  I think and pray.  Not about anything in particular, but about everything. 

I was thinking about blogging.  Usually people want to put their best out here, I really want to be honest.  The problem with being honest is that it is depressing to read, and usually on my not-great days, I just want to hide.  I want to stay anonymous, and I don't want to let anyone in.  Vulnerablility is a terrible feeling.

I'm going to push myself a few more days and decide if I will leave this out here or delete the whole thing and forget about it.  I was "up" when I started it, and truly just wanted to encourage, but this is harder than I thought it would be on the days that I feel more "down."

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